Hello September indeed! I had to take care of an errand earlier today which involves stepping inside a mall. I know that yuletide songs would be blaring through the store from the speakers this early which is what had happened. I never thought that “Joy To The World” would bring such a wave of sadness that I couldn’t wait for the errand to be over and done with.
The past few days made me realize that pain and joy can coexist. There are times that looking for something which brings joy would require more effort compared to just allowing yourself to wallow in pain which is just natural given the current state I’m in. It’s okay to feel what I feel – embracing grief as if it is a friend instead of fighting it so that I may experience true healing.
I’m approaching the season of joy while still in the season of grief.